Journey to Luke: 05/09/11

Monday, May 9, 2011

Mothers day

Mothers day was an amazing day for me. I had all 4 of my babies home with me, (Aaron is now home from college until fall). It was nice to have everyone together. I have to say that Luke was more excited about Mothers day then I was hahah. He kept telling me that he had a surprise for me (for a few days) and he couldnt tell me but that it was for his "special mother". He would get so excited when he would talk about Mothers day that it made me well up with tears. It is so strange for me to think that this little boy, who for 10 years has had no mother to hug and hold him, tell him everything will be ok and just be there for him, is excited to celebrate this day with me (his new mommy of just 3 and half months). When we first met Luke he didnt really want me near him or to touch him.. OHHHH what a difference a few months makes! This might sound like I am bragging and I guess in a way I am, but I dont really mean it as bragging... just that this is NOT what I expected in this short time, Luke and I are inseperable and he is such a Momma's Boy! The radiating smile I get every morning when he wakes and comes in my room to see me and give me such a HUGE hug is delightful. The amazing joy I feel everytime Luke jumps on my hips wrapping both his legs around me and puts his head on my shoulder and just hums to himself with joy is undescribable for me! (mind you he is 80 lbs now.. 64 lbs when we met him).... I love the way he looks into my eyes when he comes up for a hug or wants a kiss or wants me to just wrap my arms around him or have him sit on my lap. Luke is the biggest cuddle bug ever! Which for this momma is a dream come true, as I am too! My 18 year old has never been a huge cuddle bug, my 9 year old is semi a cuddle bug even though he used to be a big one (he is getting to be a BIG Boy now hahah) and my 4 year old daughter is still my snuggle princess, but it is amazing to have Luke so attached and to see how he looks at his momma, I am SO PROUD that the Lord our God picked me to be his Mom that I cant imagine what I have done to deserve this honor!

When I think of all the years that my little man never had a momma to make amazing cards and drawings for (trust me they are amazing) it breaks my heart, I wonder if he even wonders who gave birth to him...... I sure do. I wonder what they were thinking when they laid this precious little boy on the steps outside the orphanage at 8 months old hoping someone would find him and take him in. I wonder if they ever think of this little boy that they gave up ( in my mind I believe she does). I wonder if they realized he would still be in that orphanage 10 years later after that day they laid him on the steps..............

I personally am grateful to our BIG BIG GOD for making the BIG decision to have Luke be my son and to have Luke have Tom be his father, have Aaron, Tommy and Paige be his brothers and sister! Only God could have placed Luke in our family and have known that he was the perfect fit for my crazy gang! Only God would know that a 10 year old Deaf child that had no language oe education for the first 10 years of his life would need a very specific family in order to thrive and do well! Thank you Lord for watching over my precious son for 10 years and delivering him to me this Jan 17, 2011 and making him officially my son!

I am so happy to say Lukes first time to celebrate the love of a Mother was a huge success! I was given my amazing card and letter from Luke and it was with such Love and Joy that he presented them to me! My Tommy wrote me a card that had me crying like a baby, my Paigey gave me some beautfiul seeds that she planted in a pot she made and decorated with Love, Aaron went out and bought me flowers all on his own (that has never happend and this momma was very happy about that!). The kids Aunt Kimmy and Aunt Jenn drove up from Florida and spent the day with us (Lukes first time meeting his Aunts!) and my mom and dad came to spend time with us as well. It was a gorgeous day and I loved being with my family. The winds have blown my family members all over the USA recently and spending time together as a family has become a rare and cherished event, our whole family wasnt together but I am grateful for those of us that could gather! Thank you Lord for bringing us together on this day. Thank you for an amazing Mothers day! To my Luke, I am Proud to be your momma and promise to Love you endlessly, Welcome to the family Luke Xinhai Worrell!!!!!!!