About Me

My name is Tracy and I am married to an amazing man, his name is Thomas! We are a busy family that is always on the go between church, school, work and sports.... we are not a sitting around kind of family. We have 4 amazing children and are working on bringing home Elias to make 5. My hubby is Deaf and I am a sign language interpreter,we are very involved in the Deaf community and are excited to be adding another Deaf member to our family. Our kids, Aaron-19, Luke-11, Tommy-10 and Paige-5 are anxious for their new brother to be home. This is our second adoption and we are learning more everyday to lean on God, this journey is already strengthening our faith! We are working on learning how to turn everything over to God and know that He has a perfect plan and all will happen in His time! Good things come to those who wait.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

What's new with us!

I know I havent blogged since we got Luke but we have been running around like crazy. Yesterday was a day full of running around and paperwork when we got Luke. It was a long day and we crashed early. God has blessed us with a good boy that is very eager to learn, funny as heck and seems to enjoy being with us alot! 

I am not going to lie today was a rough day, not because Luke was tough or anything like that. We went to the orphanage today and it was harder then I thought. I tried to explain we were going to visit and he could say goodbye, but I do not think he understood that. As soon as we pulled in he said NO, then I said we will visit and then me, him and daddy would leave. I thought he got it because he then jumped out and started walking. We went in to the orphanage and it went down hill right away. He refused to talk to Tom or I or make eye contact at all so we couldnt communicate with him once the eye contact was gone.  They took us to the toddler rooms first and that was tough, a lot of babies in one place. There were many babies and they seemed to get upset by the visit (at least some of them did) and I dont blame them there were 3 families all visiting at the same time plus staff leading us around.  We did see Daleea's little girl and she was easy for me to spot as she looks just like her pictures, a precious little angel who is waiting so patiently for her momma to come soon!!!! We then went to Lukes floor next and saw the floormates he was with. Luke did not handle being on his own floor well and started to cry and get very upset.The staff kept saying "he is sad he is leaving' but it didnt seem like that kind of crying. He was devestated to be back and seemed to think we were leaving him.  When they took us to see his bedroom he get really upset and I asked them to please take us back to the office so we could start to leave.They tried to have the kids say goodbye to him but he was so upset at this point he didnt want to see or talk to anyone.  We went down to the office and he still would not talk to Tom or I but seemed a little better. One of the directors of the orphanage seemed upset that Luke was crying and that I was too (what mom wouldnt cry seeing her son go through that pain). She wrote him something on paper and he stopped crying after a lilttle bit. We stayed for a total of about 2 hours and that was way too long.  I was afraid our relationship with Luke would go backward for he was so upset with us, but the second we got in the van he was fist bumping us and saying I love you. He was great as soon as we pulled away and started laughing and joking with us. I do beleive he thought we were leaving him there. It was a very hard day for us all.

We got a break when another family staying in a different hotel came by and asked us to go the Science museum down the street. What a great idea!! Luke loved it and it was just what we all needed. A chance to laugh and walk and learn. Luke sure has an amazing laugh and he has laughed a ton since we left the orpahange today.  Oh and we taught him how to play War with cards and Tommy you better watch out he kicked our butts the first time ever playing haha.

Aaron seems excited as heck about Luke and Luke and Aaron have many things in Common. Aaron loves Anime and  Manga and it is very popular here and Luke also likes the same stuff and same cards and characters as Aaron. I think I can pick up some real cool stuff for Aaron tomorrow when we go shopping!

One of Luke's favorite things to do is Skype. He loves to talk to everyone on the "small box" and his day is made when he can talk with Tommy, Paige and Aaron.  He has also met his pop-pop, Granma, Nanny, Poppy, Mom-mom and Aunt Amy so far by Skype. He loves looking at the pictures we sent and talking about his family and he is obssessed with our dog, Chase!!! He is a joy and seems to listen pretty well, if there is something he doesnt want to do , he will normally listen to and follow along with whatever Tom is doing. He is definitely a "Daddys boy".  Tom so much as goes to the bathroom and Luke is waiting at the door for him, he doesnt like when Tom leaves the room for anything, he loves being with daddy!  Him and I get along amazing but it is obvious he has never had a manly influence in his life (the orphanage workers are all woman) and he is loving having a daddy to show him what to do!!!!

We went out to dinner tonight with Julie and Eric and their son Max (oh he is just the cutest ever such a sweetie pie he is 17 months old and a precious little boy!!) we had a great dinner out which we really needed! Luke is exhausted after such an emotional day and we are too so I am going to head to bed.  Tomorrow is a day of sightseeing and shopping and then we start to get ready to fly to Guangzhou on Friday ( we fly out at about 6:15 pm) to head to Guangzhou for another week. I am off to sleep as I can barely keep my eyes open, today wore me to my core, it was hard enough to see the orphanage and all of the many many many children there ( it is actually such a heart breaking experiance no matter how you look at it ) and then you add Luke's being so distraught and watching his pain and suffering and seeing him cry and look so devestated was way too much for this momma to bear. I am glad he bounced back so quick but he is definitely leary now of us taking him places. When we went to dinner he got upset and wouldnt go up the steps as I think he is just afraid of where we might go and leave him. Once he saw we were sitting in a room eating dinner he was great. Tonight Tom pulled up a computer game for him to play and the 2 of them just sat at the computer laughing their butts off, it was so good for me to see and hear. He is truly very very very happy to be with us.

off to bed so I can function for sightseeing tomorrow.

6 comments:

God's Grace said...

crying again...stiff! You need to get him home! We can't wait to meet him :) Doesn't surprize me that he's a Daddys boy either!

delucchi family said...

Loving following your journey!!
What a lovely boy Luke is.
Love Jules
xxx

Jewels of My Heart said...

Oh, Tracy..... I am so thankful that Luke isn't there anymore but safe with his family! I can not imagine what was going through his mind and his heart.... I can only thank God that it is over for him... no more orphanage... he is home with his Mama and Daddy and soon his brothers and sister!
Thank You Jesus!
praying for you all to have God's peace that surpasses all understanding and praying for the little ones still there.... how can it not break your heart! Thank you sweet friend for the priceless pictures of my daughter and for all your prayers for her... please keep praying for her. When you see Julie again please give each other a hug for me.... I am forever indebted to you both.
Sleep well sweet family...
Love,
Daleea

China Dreams said...

Poor baby. It will probably take a couple of years for him to start feeling really confident in your relationship, but his fear of desertion is actually a positive sign. Hopefully there are no other traumas awaiting him (or you).

Ruby

Aus said...

Guys - thanks for sharing your journey - we too remember our orphanage visits and the 'feelings' they brought. But in our case these trips provided a real 'turning point' with our kids - it was like from that moment on they 'knew' they were staying with us. Not knowing how Luke's full understanding of language is - maybe through your guide - ask him to remember or write down or something - how he felt yesterday - one day he may be really glad to have that memory and it won't hurt him to 'get it out' too.

Ya'll have a fine young man on your hands - love the pics too! Great joy for you guys!

hugs - aus and co.

Annie said...

Oh my Tracy! We had the exact same experience with our Lizzie. She is not deaf but was only 2 years old at the time and was terrified that we were leaving her there. She screamed anytime a nanny tried to take her from me and was SO happy when we got back on the bus. She had been non verbal up to that point but when I told her to wave goodbye tot eh CWI, she jumped up on my lap and just started waving and smiling and saying "bye bye, bye bye," over and over!!!! I hugged her tighter and knew we were going to be ok! I have loved watchinig Luke discover the things that he would never have gotten to discover and to watch him thrive and blossom with the love of a family - HIS family!!!!! What a blessing you are to each other!

Our little boy!

Our little boy!
Opening up my care package from my family!

Curious what he is thinking!

Curious what he is thinking!
Checking out my Family for the 1st time ever! (this pic is of my new Brothers and Sister!)

His first reaction after seeing us

His first reaction after seeing us
This is my Forever Family!

Some goodies from the care package

Some goodies from the care package
Some of my new books

This picture makes me cry every time I see it!

This picture makes me cry every time I see it!
My 1st picture of my mommy and daddy! They say I love to look at my pictures again and again!

Studying our faces....

Studying our faces....
Checking out my new family again!

Look at that face!

Look at that face!
Checking out my new books

Aaron's Graduation

Aaron's Graduation
We are so Proud!

Xin Hai's name in Chinese!

福新

Fu XinHai

Xin Hai

Xin Hai
Isnt he the cutest ever?

Aaron's Senior Prom

Aaron's Senior Prom
My handsome Son, Aaron

Aarons prom

Aarons prom
Paige, Aaron and Tommy

My Family

My Family
The Worrell Family

Our Precious one

Our Precious one
Xin Hai in 2008 - so precious! Love that smile!

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